Well, this would be the first blog entry that I’ve written from a place where I am transitioning to a higher plane of accepting that I control nothing. We are in the life, sent for a purpose and no matter how much we think we are orchestrating our daily lives we really are not. Oh yes, we must make choices, but what happens when life just does what it does?
No matter how well defined we are towards becoming, everyday we be come what the universe sends. I mean really no one wants negative energy or bad things to happen, but it is the way of life on either spectrum, right. I mean if we could control the outcomes EVERYTHING would be spectacular, just as we want it, right.
It’s not common for me to share my day-to-day activities but at this moment I really hope that my words can give inspiration to someone to value the moment. You see I had a situation happen two weeks ago that literally PAUSED my life from the plans I had overnight. No, I didn’t lose anyone; I didn’t lose my job; I didn’t have a major relationship break up but had a physical temporary impairment (4-6 weeks projected) that cause me to stop, reflect and change my view.
I mean literally overnight, I went from being this vibrant, functioning, highly motivated individual to being a highly functioning, not as vibrant because of the excruciating pain that I was in. I transferred my thoughts of myself as an individual who was independent to a dependent on all for everything. And of course, I questioned my own purpose and the obvious thought of WHY me, and why now?
Right at that moment I had to shift my thinking to “heal thyself” as I fought to remove every dart and negative thought that tried to end my life (it does start in the mind). The battles became real, way into the midnight hour, and I could not win every battle, but thank God for being a very present help in time of need. And while I am questioning everything and reshaping the value of me, this too will work together for my good.
If you are reading my blog and you know my vibe, I am a pursuer of life, creating the space I live in void of negativity and now this situation has me fighting to keep the “good energy” I need to fully restored. Cause even in this I am still “rooted for purpose “and in this I will still inspire, to give light to others. To know that this situation has allowed me to see my greater need for this light (divine) to shine towards me.
This temporary setback is a set up for me, this I must believe as I will be more victorious over obstacles that come my way. It has allowed to receive that “agape” love in a tangible way from my family and to open my heart, eyes, and mind to receive the love that they are displaying, around the clock care, support, and laughter. It is a blessing to have my family. So beautiful.
Humility, gratefulness and absolutely submission to the life that I no longer control. It is by His grace, His love, and His mercy that I live and only through my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ can the power of God have complete control. To know that within a moment, your mobility, your life can just change is an awakening. Something that we often times take for granted. I never thought I did, but clearly, I can say being here, I will do better.
Love your life, love your family, love the health that you live under and above all never take anything or anyone for granted. In the flash of second it can all change.
Be blessed and trust the process.